it's hard to explain.

I feel like we don't have that connection anymore, the way we used to. We haven't exactly changed really, besides the fact that we're more comfortable around each other. I guess we're just growing up. We're so busy with other priorities that we barely even find time for ourselves. I mean yeah we hangout almost everyday, but it's  just not the same anymore. I guess it's our own fault why we can't have our secret hiding spot anymore, but still .. even if we're on the phone, it's silent most of the time. I miss talking for hours, like deep conversations. I don't even remember the last time we've had one of those. I suppose that spark is gone? We're at that point where you're so used to being with each other so long that the lust has faded. I miss it. It's not that we don't love each other anymore, it's just that it's not much of a surprise anymore. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing, but I know it's natural. It happens to almost everyone. I just wish it hadn't come so soon. I miss those "first" moments. I'm probably just overreacting right now. I don't know. I feel frustrated. I don't exactly know why. I really am happy & deeply in love with him, I just want our relationship to grow into something bigger, something unexpected. Surprise me.