today was exactly what i needed.

I love that feeling you get when someone makes your day. I was just in a really bad mood today, and someone just had to make it even worse, but then he came along. It's as if he read my mind or something. I hadn't really talked or hung out with him much for the past couple nights so him calling really meant a lot. It felt kind of awkward at first just because it's been awhile. This whole day I kept thinking to myself, maybe his feelings for me are fading, maybe he's bored with me, maybe I don't make him happy, maybe he's mad at me, because I mean he barely talks to me during the day. Laying in his arms really made me feel better. Venting out everything just felt sooo good. It's those little things I really enjoy that make me really happy. I like it when we don't have to worry about pda and everything, I'm not just talking sexually, but emotionally too. There's always that other side of someone that other people don't see. Today we went to the store together and bought ingredients to make spaghetti for dinner, it was good (: We also watched Valentines Day, and I liked it! Of course he had to leave early because of school, but that was fine, I spent just enough time with him (: I'm hoping that we can go on a date this weekend. I'm thinking shopping, dinner, and a movie. I want to get out of town. I want a break from parties and irritations. Everyone wants their romantic days? And besides, I don't feel welcome at his house anyways. In a couple more weeks I'm hoping to get the two of us seattle sounders tickets. I'm going to go broke soon :( haha. Anyways, I hate when I over think things. Everything ended up okay (: 

Change.

  

Sooo my senior prom was last weekend and it was pretty good overall (: Yes, Jason did ask me to prom. I found post its in my car leading me to roses with a post it that said prom on it (: I thought it was cute because I love post its. Anyways, despite the music at prom, I had a really good time with my friends. There was so much yummy foods & the dance looked amazing! It's kind of making me realize that things are really coming to an end. As I'm passing by my friends, you could see how much we've grown up in the past 4 years. In a matter of two weeks, I'll be graduating. It feels really weird. I'm really going to miss everything once I leave. I'll especially miss my underclassmen babies, I've gotten so close to them that they've become some of my really close friends. As for friends, I think things are slowly getting better. I'm trying hard to spend more time with them & talk more, and I think things aren't awkward anymore. I like it that way. But with him... I feel like we don't exactly have much time for each other. Well, just not as much time as we used to. As each quarter goes by, I see less and and less of him. Also because of our work schedules. It's not a huge deal or anything, it's just something that kind of irritates me sometimes. I guess the only time I really spend with him is at parties or with everyone else. I barely even talk to him on the phone anymore. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but I mean there are times where I just want to have a good conversation and spend my time with him only. We're not the type to ditch our friends to be alone, but we spend most of our time with all our friends than just the two of us. As dumb as it sounds, I miss truly spending time together. It's kind of hard trying to re-live the past, I find it a little impossible. I'm getting really worried now. I mean, if I already live in the same town as him and I'm already getting upset about not hanging out with him, I can't imagine how things are going to be next year. I could just be over thinking things, maybe things could be changing for the better? I mean... not talking to him as much helps us not argue anymore, that's always good. Another thing about not seeing/talking to him kind of makes him a little more interesting. In a sense I kind of like not being around each other so much just because things aren't so predictable anymore and we don't get annoyed of each other as much. And whenever I do see/talk to him, it makes me even happier. I hope we manage time to see and talk to each other more soon. I don't want to repeat his past.