imy2.

I've never been this happy to see you say "I miss you :(" not only to me, but for everyone else to see. I guess I just wasn't expecting for you to feel the same way. It means a lot to me that you do (:

imy.

So I'm laying on my bed on a Sunday afternoon doing nothing =/ I usually spend my Sundays in Seattle with Jason, but he's currently on vacation in Florida for a week and a half. I'm trying not to be one of those clingy girlfriends who has to text him 24/7. I usually just talk to him whenever he has free time, which isn't too much, but I understand he's with his family. I also don't want to be one of those girls sitting at home just because my boyfriend is gone while everyone is with their friends. But today everyone seems to be doing their own thing, so therefore I'm kind of stuck in that situation. Ive been pretty good at keeping myself occupied for the past few days, and I've been content. I guess I'm kind of testing myself. Eventually I'm going to have to get used to not seeing him every single day, so being apart for our first time is really helping. There are a lot of times where I wish he was with me just because it gets a little lonely while everyone else is paired up, and the fact that almost everything reminds me of him. I've never missed him this much before... then again he's never left me before. I don't mean to sound pathetic, but it's just the way I'm feeling. I always try to take every opportunity to go parties&etc just so I can get him off of my mind, but even that doesn't completely work. At the end of the night, I'm still hoping he'd be with me.

" But don't you take the easy way out "

Noah: Would you just stay with me?

Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'

Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out. 

- The Notebook

 Just an old quote from a movie I liked. It fits my situation perfectly, except one part.