Falling out of love

I hate that I let it get this far. I told myself that these things weren't important and you made me believe that it was a waste of time. But now all I think about is the time that I've wasted forgetting the things that could've brought us closer. Being apart has made me realize how much happier I could've been. 

I hate thinking that this is it for me when I know there's so much more. I wanted you by my side till the end. I wanted it all with you but the feelings just didn't seem to reciprocate. Because of that, you're pushing me away and making it easier for me leave.

I still miss you but not all the time. I love you so much that it hurts. I hate feeling this way. I know there's so much more for us but I just can't seem to make it happen on my own. He's so content with how things are going but it's only pushing me further away. It's like I'm stuck but I can't seem to leave because deep down I believe there's hope. Please give me something to hold on to because I'm almost ready to let go.