i've been wanting to blog for soooo long and now i finally have the time. so much has happened this month, it's crazy. we had our annual camping trip a few weeks ago, it was fun ... until it got busted. me, loren, nicole, and brylle got arrested for an MIP and it just went downhill from there. that was probably the most scariest thing that's ever happened to me.
this whole summer has just been pretty weird. things just haven't been the same.. i just miss the way things used to be... but i know it will never be the same again. but that's how life is, you let go & move on. i miss my best friend. i don't know how we fell apart so quickly. i keep saying it's you, not me but i think i was just telling myself that so that i wouldn't feel like the bad guy. but now i can honestly say it's a two way street, nobody has honestly tried to fix things. i don't even know what we're even trying to fix, that's the confusing part. a part of me wants to man up and just say something but i feel like even if i did tell you how i feel, it wouldn't change anything. i'm tired of playing the blame game, i just want to hangout and not feel awkward. i want to have a real conversation. there are things people have told me about you that i didn't even know... i just thought i'd be the first person you'd tell. it just hurts to know that after the 4 years we've known each other, you'd rather tell the girl you knew for 6 months. regardless of whatever you may have done, out of everyone i thought i'd be the most understanding. if you were me 3 years ago, i know damn well that you wouldn't be able to put up with the bullshit you and nancy gave me when i had a boyfriend. but of course i have no say in what you do now so if that's what makes you happy, i don't want to ruin it for you.
on a better note, we finally got our apartment :) i'm the only that's basically moved in since i had summer school. my room is slowly coming together. i can't wait til we're all settled in, it's going to look beautiful. i hope the roommate situation works out, i know there will be a few arguments here and there but i just hope we're all mature enough to just get over it lol. living together is like having a sleepover every night, i can't waaaait :) this is random but i went to a sounders match with my boyfriend and best friends a few weeks ago and it was pretty fuuuun. & I SAW NATE ROBINSON AND JAMAL CRAWFORD at a pro-am game, just saying.
btw, summer school blows; never doing it again.
