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Have you ever had that one person stuck on your mind like all day that you can't stop thinking about no matter what. Well I'm at that point. I just can't stop thinking about him once he leaves my sight. I'm sitting in my room right now and all I could think about was what he said to me last night. He told me how beautiful I was, and how much he loves me and how he wanted to get old together. I wasn't sure if he meant it or not because he was drunk. Normally he wouldn't say anything like that to me while sober, but I don't know. It made me really happy, I literally couldn't stop smiling. Thank goodness it was dark because my smile was starting to look really ugly. I love it when he holds me really close because I like knowing I'm his one & only. I think it's really cute when he calls me babe, baby, or love. I don't know why, it's just a name. Whenever we're in public, I always make sure to hold his hand, or do something to make sure people know he's unavailable. I want the world to know he's mine. Also, if I'm attached to him at the store, creepers won't talk to me, so he's like my body guard. I love falling asleep together every night on the phone because it's the closing thing to sleeping with him. I love how he's willing to pick me up anywhere, anytime, everyday. Whenever somethings wrong, I know I can vent to him no matter what the situation is. I love the way he says "I love you." He looks really hott when we have sex, he's amazing in bed. Okay enough with that. I'm watching 500 days of summer all by myself. I like the movie, but it makes me think about him even more. Old memories we had together keep going through my head. When we first started going out, he wrote this blog and said " I realized the more I get to know/see her, the more and more I like her." That made my heart melt. I remember when we first kissed on the lips, and when we said our first "I love you." Falling in love with him has probably been the scariest, yet best feeling I've ever felt. I've never been this happy with someone before. " My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side." I trust him with my heart more than anything. I'm scared that I'll lose him. I don't know what I'd do without him. He's like that one person that you know you're meant to be with. Honestly, I can't picture myself with anyone else but him. I've never met a guy with qualities that he has. Everyone wants to find " the one, " but I think I already found him.  I could be wrong because I'm only 17. But this type of feeling doesn't come around very often. I'm hoping it'll last for a long time.

Don't leave me...