Wow. I never realized how fast my high school years have gone by. Everyone's turning into adults now and filling out their applications to colleges. Soon we're all going our separate ways. I went to Ver's birthday party last night, and it just came to my mind that it'll probably be my last year going to his annual birthday party at his house. I've been attending his parties since the eighth grade, and now he's 18?! damn. So much has changed since then, I remember when we used to be best friends. I can honestly say some friendships really don't last forever. I can't say I don't miss it, but we're both to blame. I've been in and out of friendships too many times, that sometimes I'm scared of getting close to people, because I know they're going to leave. The people I was surrounded by me last night were the same people that's been with me throughout my 4 years in high school. Just knowing I won't see them everyday is just a weird feeling. I'm really going to miss everyone once graduation hits. I'm scared of what's going to happen next. I don't even know what I want to do in life. I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do with my future. I'm just now learning what it's like to have a job & saving up money. Holidays are coming up & I need to make this the best. I finally don't have an excuse why I shouldn't buy my family, best friends, boyfriend, and friends good presents this year. I want to buy them something with MY money. Knowing that I spent hours, week after week, working for that money, and being able to spoil that money for the ones I love, must feel good. Using my money to get things for other people has made me appreciate how much money my parents, boyfriend, and bff's spend on me. I never realized how much I ask for. Thanksgiving is coming up, and I'm definitely thankful for everything God has done for me. There's lots of things I'm thankful for, but I'll just leave it at this.
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